Saturday, October 25, 2008
你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
曲周杰伦歌词提供再兴
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:56 AM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
happy happy happy birthday darling mrs lim. =)
loves.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:39 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008
i..
miss..
you.
history repeating itself.
the feel to keep deep down in our heart.. no one shall reveal that.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:34 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
8:43 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
thanks for the greetings...
take care:)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:33 AM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
hesitating to message or not..
never the less...
i think i would wish to say.
happy birthday baby.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:09 AM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
dun understand.
why would you regret when you'd lost the person?
why when she put down her pride and asked you back,
you ignore her?
why treat her so harshly, made her cry like shit,
yet still say love her?
my pride got no value. i cried for my love, but my love left me alone.
my love told me, there's still love
but...
where are you when i needed you most?
suffering alone.. misery alone..
never ever will forget the one beside me when my grandpa passed away.. it's not you.
you know how much.. how much... i need you to be by my side?
but in the end, you came for one night, stayed for a few hours and go off.
after you go off, you msg-ed me.. and argue with me.
at my down point...
you told me.. i no longer need you.
but... ever consider why would i stay alone for so long?
recall back...
i made my effort for meeting up..
going out..
choosing bday present..
making xmas present..
buying xmas present..
tat's before you get attached.
i made my effort le...
but you.. simply left me alone coz..
busy with work.
very tired.
sick.
bla bla.
i dun understand.. if tat's love.. den wat's mine?
as said.. my pride got no value...
maybe im really not worth.
you know...
for your say of.. "for my own good" doesn't tally with your doings.
maybe we're just too stubborn...
we stereotype each other thinking and meaning.
i seldom stop you from contacting anyone.. but you assured me you wun contact her but you still contacted her in the end, without my knowing. i can only blame myself for holding too tight to my love and made you lost a perfect 'guai' girl you ever want. be it with your current gf, you still contacted her. well if you really love her so much, den you shld go for her wat.. since she waited for you for so long. you have the capability to make her fall again isnt it so?
never ever you will surprise me by sending flower to my home or even my work place. never ever. maybe as conclude, im really not gentle enough. im not one that will listen to everything you said coz i have my own stand and own thinking. maybe that lead to all the quarrels ba.
break down.
cried.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:14 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
am back!=) i realise.. i forgot to paste in what i replied you. haha. not too late.. there you go.
meet up with darling and im so excited the whole day before we met. haha. well, every point now is a learning point to us. as time goes, our age and path of life lead us to join the workforce. this is something that you cant stop but to face it bravely. that's the fact. the fact that we need to face the reality and survive.
some time.. i wish we could turn back time. stop at the moment when we enjoyed the most. stop at the moment without worries. stop at the moment when smiles and laughers are the only emotion we felt. it's amazing for us to stay in contact and remain this bond that no one shall break. since secondary till now... years together.. who else understand me more than you do? haha.
yaya. meet up soon again k? shall bring you go eat nice nice food.. but of coz.. i know must be something you can slowly chew and eat ya. =)
MISS!! muackz. hugz.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:34 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
"mummy miss daddy." gaigai said.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:58 PM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
why something aint meant to be said?
why hurt me deeply and say love me still?
why so harsh to me and say for my own good?
why let me cry alone and cry alone too?
why are we so stubborn?
and
can someone just tell me why?
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:59 PM
Monday, June 30, 2008
YEAH!! Finally met up with Mrs Neo!! =) For the 1st time that I can remember, I waited for Mrs Neo to knock off.. =) Alone in starbucks, drinking my current fav coffee and eating my pathetic lunch.. I realised how amusing life can be! Everyday seems to be a learning point for me and I just had to learn and grow.. Well probably that's life isn't it? I'm anticipated to join the workforce yet at the same time I've this fear in me that made me kinda coward. This is really bad for me, Serene is turning away from reality again. The strong girl starts to turn timid.. ZZz
Whenever I started to meet up with my dalring maine and talk about stuff, I wished time wld stop because in our conversation, we are always little maine and little ling in OUR own World!! I super LIKE!! haha. But we tend to gossip and forget which may be good cuz whenever we meet up, the gossip can just be recap and continued. WEE!!
Braces will be up soon, so Mrs NEO, I'll meet u for foody once I get use to it!!! missing you lots.. muacks
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:33 PM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
i miss my darling mrs lim badly. meet up meet up!!
and ..
my ever most irritating sunzi....
MISS LOTS.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:13 PM
Friday, May 30, 2008
i said enough. dun go on further.
dun assume what kind of person i think you are.
if it's that easy to simply rub it off, the past 5 yrs will be a waste.
my love for you is true.
if you think it's fake, den just take it that i can simply rub you off my memories.
maine.. simply, stop being stubborn and childish!
yes. came to a conclusion after some thoughts. i dun wish to make things that bad till the extend to make our friends difficult or for both of us to force ourselves to forgo the memories we once shared.
rub it off? aint easy.
be it who's fault.. mine or your or others.. it doesnt matter anymore. remain as what it is ba.
no more quarrel. no more confronting. no more no more. im so reluctant to explain again and reason again.
stubborn no longer in my dictionary.
i dun wish to be stubborn.
peaceful life.. i wan too.
as said.. enough. stop blaming/faulting each other or anyone.
baby still. and i currently hope, you will be happy den. =)
take care my babydevil.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:45 AM
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
you know... even she said that earlier, you think i'll leave you for her? am i that kind of person to you? if i aint loving you enough, why shld i suffer every down point with you? wny shld i go thru all the hardship with you?
yes. over is over. i din wana say everything and who's the one that force me to say? i said i dun wish to bring up right? your love for me.. i felt that before. saying you never love me.. i wasnt happy. UNDERSTAND?
when i said im sick, im really sick. i din fake it to make you come back. how i wish you are by my side when im taking the injections? how i wish you are the one taking care of me when i vomit or having high fever? how i know when you're attached when im the last to know? you know how sick am i the day i msg you and you're enjoying at c&c? you know how horrible it is to go thru all this myself when my baby once promised she will be there to take care of me when im sick? you din came down at all.
my life.. you already step out long ago. ever since you gave this relationship up, you had already step out of my life. we been thru 4yrs plus together... simply say.. 'i dun bother abt you anymore and i dun feel a single bit for you anymore' is impossible. what's love den? really no more love? if anything happens to you, i know i'll still feel hurt.
enough. and i shant be childish to complain or confront. i dun wish to know anymore things and the past.. we shant bring up anymore. be it contacting or not contacting me, up to you. pls think over and really think over what you did is right or wrong. if you still insist that you are really right den fine.
and if this 'sound nice' to you.. i'll wish you 2 happiness too!
just for your info.. your self proclaimed happiness is selfish. you hurt 2 person that you claimed is your 'close ones'. you have your stand to say you are right. but my stand, you are wrong. love is selfish, that's what you gonna say.
i remain my stand. promises to you, i wun forget. happy moment, i'll try to recall. the hurt, i'll forget. that's the best thing i can do for you in order not to piss each other further.
pls be fair to me and dun add on anything to hurt me further. i really had enough le. i would rather recall the happy moment with you den crying like a fool for the hurt you brought to me.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:46 AM
Monday, May 26, 2008
im not blaming anyone or costing anyone any trouble. since she love u since the past 5 years le.. den good.. she's the one for u.. ya rite... den go for it.. i'll wish u two happiness... i say le... over is over but why still wan to drag the past and say it again n again...?? i already admit im the one hurting u in the past ... im the one telling all the lies to u... being with u for 4 years plus, i dun even love u be4... like tis u all happy?? jus being with u , im jus using u... like tat can???
im leaving u alone not cos im going to mia from u forever... is im jus tired of all tis things tat had happen... im not tat CHILDISH!!! playing MIA game for wat!!! jus tat leaving u alone , ur life will be better... like u say, she's there for u since YEARS AGO?? den cherish her ya... she should tell me earlier, so i can be like her so WEI DA and give up the r/s... haha...
nvm,... ended here.. forever...i wont step into ur life anymore or say anything anymore...wont ask anything or comments anything anymore...the whole world can say im bad..im a jerk...is fine with me...as long as im clear with myself and knows wat im doing is right or wrong...i say le.. i onli want to remember the happiness times with u when i tot of u... tats all.. tc lots...bye...
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:54 PM
your white lies... wanting me to understand when it hurt me so much? close friend to be? after so much hurt? i think im really being very strong to accept everything that you said and done le.. if you think it gonna be easy for my position, it means you never love me enough.
your best solution is called 'running away'. is your phone to contact. your decision to msg. your decision to call. not me. you dun wana contact den be it. MIA is childish den this is childish too. irregardless.. up to you to decide. coz im at no say.
i din let you know who to trust or who not to trust. be it what had been communicated to me.. is me to define to trust or not to trust that person. moreover a lot of things I already know it myself in the past just that.. i kept quiet all along. yes. it's your white lies. but let me tell you, almost all your white lies.. i know.. and pls define how painful it is to bear the hurt. i understand, that's why i kept quiet. no one knows when you're crying hard in the middle of the night. than you know when you're just beside me sleeping and my tears roll non stop?
what you had done for me.. i remembered. im trying to recall.. but i cant recall much. know why? it's too painful to recall. know why we cant have a clear ending? that's bcoz we had too much in connection. maybe im the only one feeling that way.. coz the connection in you.. went harewire.
dun need to explain, nobody will piss you and the problem wun arise. know why? coz i wun want any problem to arise. no one else to get involve. this problem is between us and there's no need to drag anyone in. =)
stop asking me what to do. so easy to forgo everything? heartbreak to see me like tat? im happy and you are happy? what are you trying to tell me? i cry and you feel like crying too? than where's your sense to sense how hurtful i am... how painful i felt?
know what im pissed about? for all that you've done.. you alway think that you're so right. aint you feeling a single bit of guilt towards me at all? or whatever i said is not true.. so you felt nothing at all?
seeking for forgiveness and sorry can cure everything ma? i agreed we aint children anymore. i said.. i wun blame or fault you. coz your love is very selfish. you hold me on till you found someone that replace me. when you found her, you turned to me and say bye! i knew the love is selfish all along and never expect for the return.
your wanting of a peaceful life.. is what i want too. IM NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING ANYMORE OR EXPECT ANY EXPLAINATION and PLEASE DUN ADD ON TO IT ANYMORE. i dun wana know anything anymore. no worries.. no one will say anything about you anymore.
im letting the hurt supercede the love. im bearing with the pain and always remember the scar will never go away. Soon, I'll realise, there's no more love and it's hurt that hold me back. you know.. i dun love you anymore. i duno how to love you anymore. it's the hurt that's so painful till.. i duno how to carry on?
just to let you know.. the one that bring back my smile is JOVE CHEN. you shld not fault her and you shld thanks her for trying her best to retreive my smile. she's the one that wipe my tears away when my tears roll for you. she dun feel good either but she stayed by my side. if you're unaware, she loved me unconditionally throught out the 5yrs with you. thou she said a lot of bad things about my attitude.. but whenever i need her, she's always by my side. Apart from that think of what you've done to her before faulting on anyone. If you think that whatever you did is right, i have nth to say den.
just like how good your gf SHEENA TAN can be. I din scold her at all. If for my previous attitude.. she will sure be drag in even thou she got nothing to do with it... but I din. think of how hypocrite she is... and what she did to you and jove.. *she wasnt to blame? haha.
enough right? im being too loud. i resume my peace. i'll remain silent again. bearing everything to myself again. being loud is too tiring. i dun need anymore explaination. be it the truth or not the truth, im too tired to find out. what's left is only belief in myself.
yes. will take good care and same goes to you.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:14 PM
im jus sick and tired explaining and define myself anymore... i had tok to u ytd le.. if im really so bad towards u, den hate me ba.. im not being harsh to u anymore.. trying hard to be close to u again so i can be comfortable being friends with u again?? but i think im wrong, is it u can never be my friend?? or i really must MIA from u for a moment ?? till u really can let go of me le den we can tok?? i jus feel tat is very childish to MIA?? everyone had grown up... accept everything srtongly?? i know is hard... but wat esle can u do?? be it i attached or not... it will make no different too... my attitude and the way im doing still be the same... i say be4 le... dun assume things... i mind how u feel cos i still treat u as my close friend... but i think is hard le ba... from today onwards, i'll leave u alone..wont contact u anymore till u can tell me u're fine le truthfully...not cos i dun wanna contact u is cos i dunno how too...mayb leaving u alone will be the best solution?? u had lots of friends out there taking care for u le... tats good enough ba..
i'm really sorry abt the white lies tat i lie to u be4... not asking for ur forgiveness, but ur understanding...being together for so long... u choose to believe me or not... others can say how bad am i, but u?? i dunno...and thanks for letting me know who the one i should trust or not...though is hurtful but at least i know the truth... is enough le.. im tired too... so sick abt everything...
and im really really sincerly asking for ur forgiveness...not hoping u can forgive me but jus wanted u to live on happily...cos i think the more i explain...the more i'll being piss...the more the problem will never be end...i rather let u guys say me till the day u guys are happy...tats all...one day u not happy,i wont be happy too...really hope u can drop my love deep down to the sea... cos i know im someone not worth u deserve??i feel heartbreaks seeing u like tis too... believe or not up to u ya... take care lots...
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:06 AM
recall how painful it can be..
i stopped myself from thinking and continue my studies...
my mind dun seems right.. and it's still pain that i felt.
raining now and heaven seems to tear for me... im run out of tears.. it's so painful yet i tear no more.
maybe i deserve all these? working hard for the better future.. yes.. a better future when the goals of two became one.
i wasnt worth cherishing.. maybe that's what you wana put across.
enough. dun wish to know. dun wana know. dun need to know. i had enough le.
define what's hurt.. and you will understand and feel that hurt i had!
does it really hurt you if i believe or not believe? im nth to you, why even bother? you understand what's hurt? what's pain? no... you dun really understand.
define tired. you aint the only one. it can never be tired if you love the person.
for everything about you.. im never once tired. you din have a proper job and stayed with me.. i never once complained having a hard time. for working so hard.. i never once complained being tired. yet... just a simple.. TIRED... you gave me up. excuses ma?
define karma. for the amt of tears roll down for you... make sure.. you have it double back.
there isnt a single guilt coz love is selfish. blame it on yourself.. you gave up the one who gave in everything to you. you gave her up! pls remember that forever!
define regret. there's no regret in your dictionary. you always think you are so right. how will you ever regret giving up on me?
be harsh. continue that. im numb to your harshness and all the hurt you gave.
time doesnt cure at all. SEE THAT.. almost 1 yr.. and im still alone whereby other gave herself the excuse of being tired and moved on well!!
kellyn said.. time will never cure.. the pain will remain.. scar will always be there. you once love deeply but the one you loved hurt deeply... the hurt will never fade.. the love slowly will be supercede by hurt..
i can only say.. the love is painful... and maybe... i wasnt even loved at all.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:02 AM
Friday, May 23, 2008
ahhahhhhhh....
my darling went to bkk without me..
so so so sad!! sOb!!
pack me in your bag. i wana go i wana go i wana go! -poots
exam maddness. MIND me! haha.
MISS NXL LOTS!
BE BACK QUICK! with lots of GOODIES. =X
` mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:25 PM
Friday, May 09, 2008
Torn - yes. totally torn.
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I dont care, I have no luck, I dont miss it all that much
Theres just so many things that I cant touch, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn. torn.
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right, Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and Im ashamed bound and broken on the floor
Youre a little late, Im already torn
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:38 AM
contented. for once. coz of your love for the angel.
appreciated. coz of your pampering for the precious princess.
Close my eyes forever
Baby
I get so scared inside, and I don't really understand
Is it love that's on my mind, or is it fantasy
Heaven
Is in the palm of my hand, and it's waiting here for you
What am I supposed to do with a childhood tragedy
If I close my eyes forever
Will it all remain unchanged
If I close my eyes forever
Will it all remain the same...
Sometimes
It's hard to hold on
So hard to hold on to my dreams
It isn't always what is seems
When you're face to face with me
You're like a dagger
And stick me in the heart
And taste the blood from my blade
And when we sleep, would you shelter me
In your warm and darkened grave
Will you ever take me
No, I just can't take the pain
But would you ever trust me
No, I'll never feel the same
I know I've been so hard to you
If I could have just one more wish
I'd wipe the cobwebs from my eyes
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:16 AM
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Wee, once again i'm back to blog! Managed to get sufficient rest after exam and went to sch for some meetings and stuff. =) Thank you maine darling for ur loving and encouraging poem. =P
Once again,I'm being bothered by some1 that I shldn't be even bother with. But I guess wounds dun heal that fast after all.. I always thought that I can control my emo, my thoughts.. But till today, I realised how much I've failed! Yes, I keep reminding myself not to fall for his tricks though, but it comes so naturally that after it was done, I realised it. His cared and protective comes so naturally for me, I started to feel fear! Fear for the illusion I'm having. I wonder was it bcuz he felt bad and wanting to repay me, or his feelings for me has alwaya been there. A doubt that I nv dare to ask or know.. *silently* I reminded myself not to have any contacts/concern about him but somehow, part of me just can't.. I start to doubt my capabilities to overcome the wound..
Somehow, I have the urge but I stopped. THinking that it is pointless.. I guess I've made a wise choice.. =)
Ah maine too busy with studies.. Waiting for her to finish her busy and stressful period so that she can meet me for relaxing!!!! =) Waiting patiently!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:50 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I am told not to expect as expectation brings further disappointment.
Base on what kind of expectation caused the most disappointment?
Expecting the other party to know what you are thinking when nothing was voiced out? Expecting the other party to understand your doing cause of a 'no choice' reason? Or expecting the other party to bear all the pain just cause of love? Why ppl love? and why do love hurts? but yet.. why only love, makes one realise and grow up?
Love is surrounding the world. It never fails to love something or someone. Love can bring in happiness and yet bringing sorrows to all. Love from family will never be enough and ppl tends to take advantage of it. Love from partner will never be satisfying as ppl tends to demand for more. Love from friends will never be ending as true friends will be there for you always.
If bringing a step forward to clarify issues and problem, will love overcome everything? Sounding out will create trouble or solving the problems?
* If you see something you don't like, then don't just complain about it. Do something about it.
* If you don't stand for something, you'll fail for anything.
Bits and Pieces of Life.. Don't ever regret whatever done and said.
- random -
` mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:49 AM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Delicate to my ever dearest Mrs Lim. =)
Life can take your dreams and turn them upside down. Friends will talk about you when you're not around. Reality can really cut you down to size.
People make you promises they'll never keep. Soon you'll know why people say, 'Talk is cheap!'. Life resembles one big compromise, but don't ever lose that light in your eyes.
Keep on shining. Don't lose faith and don't lose heart.
When you're crying, just keep trying to remind yourself you're a shining star
Yes, you are!
Somewhere down the line you'll face the judgment day.
When the angels look at you... what will you say?
Heaven or Hell?
They've got a way of knowing who qualifies, just let them see that light in your eyes.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:26 PM
Recall the days we exchange our diary. It's the storybook of our life. Grumbling, back stabbing, gossiping, complaining, sharing and caring. Haha. Realised there's so many changes.
The pathway of being an adult. Coping with the mixed feeling we had. Tired and totally wore out but still bear with it to carry on. Almost collapse but yet there will always be you and I to pull each other thru. The ray of light shine upon us when we decided to move on. It's a new beginning to the path of the grown ups.
I am being pushed and forced to face my own heart. Not to live in misery and not to live in regret. The hurt is equal, maybe aint much painful compared to yours. The amount of hurt tolerable is only at that level. Beyond that level, it's to the extreme limit when heart, senses and feelings are lost. Cherishing the one before losing it. Remind yourself, you once cherish but he didn't appreciate. Till you felt numb, it's too late for him to start cherishing.
Again, i also forced myself to forget the pain, the harshness. I allowed myself to move on and accept the fact. Regardless how painful it is to me, I hold on tightly not allowing myself to fall and also constantly remind myself I need to be happy. As said, it's never easy done den say. You thought the hurt is cured, you thought the pain is gone, but till the day, you face him once again and realise the scar will always be there.
The one I loved, hurt me terribly but yet my heart beat for the sake of a sec of happiness. My heart shan't dies, for it remain being the gal she once loved.
Darling, you've nth to lose either. Look back, what's there to lose out for the sake of a 'married' guy? Will he be doing anything for you again? and if he attempt to step into your life, will the scar in your heart disappear? It's the way you look upon. The path you chose lead to your wedding day. Nothing worse den me. The path I chose lead to a never ending. The path I chose might lead me to a lifetime misery. Nothing to compare. Despite the numbness, we still need to carry on with our life. =)
Turn around telling myself. Maine, what's there to lose out for the sake of a 'attached' her? Will she be doing anything for you again? and if she attempt to step into your life, will the scar in your heart disappear? Yes, it's the way I look upon. Remain silent and shut up.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:54 AM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Staying strong isn't a easy path. Coping every feelings, every emotions it tires our body and brain. But for those who loves u wan to see u walking out of the shadow and move on. Like I said, it is hard, but bear with it.. Soon the pain will slowly be gone. (bcuz numb liao =P)
At least for u, u are able to face ur own heart. But I can't. From the day,I was terribly hurt, I lost my heart, my senses and my feelings. The one u loved, always hurt u but brings happiness to u just a sec. THe one that love you, always bring happiness ard u but it takes long time. I dunno how much my love is for him, I just know that cherish whatever I have before I lost it again.
I forced myself to forget the pain, the incident and moved on. Indeed, as long as I'm not remind of it, I look happy and bubbly. But once again, I faced him, I cannot control but felt the pain. The pain of all the lies.. Everything just came back. I need time to heal again! A path that I chose to make my life looks great and no problems. A path when there is no heading back..THat's the path I had to look forward in the future.. My wedding day.
Dun need to guess or feel lost. THe person whom I once hate was Him who lied that he attended his best fren wedding but it was his wedding. Hatred has gone long ago.. When I see him, I'm numb already.
Nursing my wounds, my heart beat again for the man who constantly curing me w/o fails. A man who forgives my wrong and be there for me. A man who still doubts my ability to withstand all the bees but yet loves me. I'm contented and I want to erase the hurt I've so that Life is totally new.
Maine, U had faced ur feelings so clearly. U've nth to lose anymore Bcuz the one tat lost u, will be the one regreting. I hide every emotions and now left a empty shell of numbness in it. That's the path I chose when I was hurt. Worse den u. =P
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:31 AM
Darling, remembered you once told me that i always thought you're strong den me but deep down you were not. It's just that you chose your life that way you want to and just show it to the person how good life can be. Indeed. Am glad that trust is still around and will always be around. Be it whoever you had in mind that tries to stir things up, doesn't matter anymore. Everyone has their own stand. The truth to be kept unknown. Be it, whoever's fault it can be, move on and not bothered by unhappy stuff. Like mentioned, Karma lies beneath.
Im counting myself lucky to be able to go thru so much with my devil. Despite the hurt and pain, i grow up. Shan't grumble over whatever that happened before. Most importantly, stop the crying and heartaches. After all, I am only a gal the devil 'used' to love. The devil's realising is wrong. Angel desire the need of devil's presence just that it's kept silent.
The past me will not remain in silent for so long. Haha. Well, I begin to doubt am I myself. The tigress, unreasonable, bad temper, stubborn, pampered, spoilt, evil princess, where has she gone? The present me chosen the path to bear the pain silently alone. The harshness not easy to bear. The pain not easy to tolerate.
Everyone wants me to be strong. Everyone wants me to be happy. Everyone hope and wish I will not be sad anymore. For the sake of my love ones, I am required to stay strong and for the sake of myself, I need to grow up and be strong.
I know I will be treated harshly since you had decided on the path you want. Like said, I'll take it but I will not lie to my heart thou. Still love but the love ain't being appreciated, so shut up better. Easily said den to be done. Move on aint easy thou, I'll take it slowly ba. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:21 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
for the smile on your face,
she smiles.
for the happiness you seek,
she leave.
for the peace you desire,
she remain silent.
it's not easy to hide behind that mask and not showing out.
it's not easy to take it as nothing happen before.
it's not easy to move on even though by saying, it's easy.
There was a time in my life
When I opened my eyes and there you were
You were more then a dream
I could reach out and touch you
That was long ago
There are somethings that I guess I'll never know
When you love someone you got to learn to let them go
When I dream about you
Thats when everything's alright
You're in my arms, here next to me, forever
When I dream about you
you never go away
Just close my eyes wait for my dreams
Cuz I still love loving you
How can I get you to see
That I'm fallin apart since you've been gone
I could never be sure
I could never let go
Your love is much to strong
There are just somethings that I guess I'll never know
When you love someone you JUST got to learn to let them go
[[ bAbyanGel^
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:01 PM
Nothing can stop emotions
that run down the sides of your face
Wish i could change this moment to
another time and place
Nothing you say can move me
I've chosen the road that I'm on
I have to join the fight for freedom
until the war is won
We will keep the faith between us
if we only try
We will keep the truth inside us
love will never lie
Someone will always hear you
Care about you when you cry
But no one can hear my heart is breaking
as I say goodbye
But even though the cold from your still beating
And even though the cold in your eyes
makes me freeze all the time
My love will never lie
if we keep that assurance inside
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:00 PM
well said..i like it..haha..
yup.. im glad that u told me the truth too..being betray is not a bad thing too?? cos at least i know who's good and bad surround me... thanks for the trust u given me.. cos i know there's still someone i know trusted me..
hmmmm...thanks for telling and remind me who she is now... the gal i used to love... i finally realised she reli grown up and move on le.. she no longer need me anymore... at least in my heart she still stand a good place ...when i though of her, i'll smile and say everything that happens before... is really worth it...
for those who still at a childish stage,i had nothing to say.. jus wait and see...kama will look for u de...
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:30 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Finally we met. The separate made us realised the growth and I'm really glad to see u grow up. It made me really less worried bcuz I know that U will stay strong..
So many things happened and I'm glad that trust is still ard and will always be ard. For the one who tries to stir things up, will get karma and i always believe so. But at least I learnt a great lesson ar. Human can be so evil to do such a thing. of cuz drama always show but I nv thought that it will happen in real life esp. in my life. But thanks to that person, I learn to pay more attention to my surrounding and ya. I studied psychology, so i wun be stupid to believe wad I only see..But I believe my intuition. =P
Well, not wanting to mention unhappy stuff.. I only wish my darling getting a good partner and not sad anymore by her love ones. =) *praying for ya*
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:31 PM
Friday, April 18, 2008
i'll make myself recover.
wipe away my tears and look ahead.
i'll only considering else ppl when love ends.
*she's your choice and glad for you. =) be happy always and take care.
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:32 AM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
the happiness you want,
i cant give.
someone had replace the me in your heart.
=)
no longer the angel you love.
no longer the princess you adore.
wishing you all the best in everything you do.
the expectation aint there.
wishes didn't come thru.
angel left with a smile.
smile of her past.
angel left with her tears.
tears roll for her only love.
nth to describe.
nth to understand.
her devil.. refuse to understand her.
misery.. to be bear by the angel.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:55 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Love, i see forever in your eyes
I can see heaven in your smile
And when i hold you close
I don't want to let go
Because deep in my soul i know
You are the only light i see
Your love means everything to me
I know that we'll never part
'cause you'll always be in my heart
If the sun, should refuse to rise
And the moon, doesn't hang in the night
The tides won't change, seasons rearrange
When the world is through
I will still love you
Im like an angel from above
Sent here to shower you with my love
Hold you beneath my wings
Tell you all of those things
All the hopes and the dreams we can share
'cause i'll be your shelter from the storm
I'll be the fire that keeps you warm
I'll be your light in the dark
'cause you'll always be here in my heart
If anything could last forever
It's what i feel for you
(that's what i feel for you)
baby, you touch my heart in ways
That words could never say
That's why i'll always love you
Yes i will love you still baby
Just believe
You're all i need
I will still love you
i suddenly realised so much yest. be it, we are the silly ones or be it we are the stubborn ones. the one beside us.. is no longer each other. the one we hug, no longer each other. the one we kiss, no longer each other. sometimes... love just aint enough. you can treat one as only love. but normally in the end, you will hurt your only love deeply and be with someone who treat you as only love. you cant stand the loneliness. you cant stand being alone. you love to be loved. but yet being loved by your only love is misery.
not going to influence one another mind anymore. i am still who i am. i remain as myself. no change. believe or not. =)
last stand. last saying.
the title.. no different. still my baby. i still treat you as the one i love. my only love till now.
thru you, made me realise whatever i feel for chinting is merely a like turn out to be a habit. thru chinting, i learn to rely and learn to know i can be pampered. coz of the pampering and giving in to me, i thought i love her a lot. but than to realise... im still not mature enough to understand the meaning of love. feelings are weird isnt it? you thought it's this way.. but normally to realise.. it's another way. too many doubts in it.. sometimes.. even ourselves also duno what we really want.
going thru so much with you. be it the time without proper meal. be it the time without entertainment. be it the time you need support for your own business. be it spending my sat night accompany you to help up for your mum. be it spending my time to go down your work place after sch just to wait for you to finish work. be it supporting you when you meet with difficulties. be it crying for you when you meet with danger. be it unhappy for you when you're feeling sad coz of insecurity from me. be it happy with all the outing we went before. be it the night life we shared. be it just lacing in my room and do nothing. be it waiting for you to reach home after your work. be it cooking for you. be it you cooked for me. be it feeling content with all the surprises. be it feeling appreciated to get the things i like. be it feeling loved all the time. be it lying on my leg and fell aslp. be it accompany me doing my assignment and come all the way to help me do housework. be it hugging me the way i like. be it the simplest thing to the most difficult thing. be it coz it's with you.. im contented already.
for going thru so much, i realised the LOVE content. define it and finally understand. we suffered a lot at our down point but yet we manage to pull it thru everytime. we shared the happiest moment together and it's kept as memories when i'll smile whenever recall.
thanks for making me understand and know what is love all the about. so sweet. so innocent. so naive. so happy. so xingfu. so selfish. so painful. so hurtful. so tired. so tolerating. so forgiving. i understand though not together yet the feeling of loving each other. i understand the holding on yet no one appreciate. i understand the pain of being harsh and also understand the feeling of lying to oneself heart.
too painful to hold. move on like how you did. seeing you with someone else but not me.. it's never easy. seeing you holding someone hand, it's painful. seeing you hugging someone, its hard to hold back my tears. I dun understand the love you mean anymore. the assurance i seek for... no longer hold any meaning to it. the truth to be make unknown. you are not able to give me any ans to ensure my belief. maybe im just the stubborn one. maybe it's true that you no longer love yet i still wish to lie to myself that im the only love for you.
having the time to view thru all my blog and yours.. realise everything is just what human said at the very right of point. who will really make it thru? who will really keep the promise? who will really mean what they really wana mean? and who will really mean what they said?
if i say i can... I CAN! if i say i will... I WILL! if i say i will keep... I KEEP!
yes.. i wonder.. how fate ended just like that. Cant believe but yet got to accept it. looking at the date. Officially started with no. 5 but due to the 'patch up'. 10 will be the no. 10th April. Happy Anniversary.. and it's 5 years le.
settled 5 yrs ago to stay together in the code of 10 my fav. no.
now.. 5yrs later, finalise to move on and forgo the heaven in the code of 12 your fav. no.
i laughed and smile everytime 4D like to come out 1210. HAHA.
ya. struggling myself to ensure the mask is perfect. perfect to hide how i feel. perfect enough to smile without tears. at least that's what i can do.. to perfectly endure and tell you.. i'll be happy!
you ensured yourself for staying happy yest. you proved that you are xingfu with her. i said once before.. for your smile, i will smile. for your happiness, i'll leave. blame it den.. im really not the one to give you any happiness.
i always hope at least to me, you dun wear a mask. at least to me, be truthful. at least to me.. let me know what you're really thinking and how you really feel.
the meant to be... will never meant to be again? even if it's really meant to be.. it's only for their heart to realise. coz.. both are too stubborn. each another had gave in too much already. tired to retrieve back anything or maybe you just feel that it's not worth retrieving?
Dont wait till it's too late to regret. Love is not to forget, but to forgive. Not to see and assume, but to understand and feel. Not to let go, but to hold on and move on.
There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more.
Someone taught him. Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :
"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.
Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :
"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?"
The one you think of is also someone you love.
If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.In life, there are more sorrows than happiness.
There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.
If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.
In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.But it shouldn't stop there.
If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.
Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.
If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?
face the fact maine.. you are neither one. =|
I know it myself, be it happy or sad, you will come to my mind first. I asked myself this question before and that's my answer. Rejected the best prospect for marriage and chosen the one in my heart. forsake the future, for the sake of the princess's prince.
enough said. 10 april 08 is our my day. I will spend it myself. my last dateline to myself and i had did all that i can. i had enough. 10 mths ago, you chose to leave me.. i stayed to be alone coz i cant accept myself to be with anyone when I still love you. yet how can you be with others and still love me? contradicting...
stop bitching.. my last say and it's final. no regrets.
i love my heaven in love.
i love my prince.
i love the piggy that used to slp beside me.
i love the one who cuddle me to slp.
i love the evil devil.
i love my baby.
that's it. i shut myself up in my own heavenlove without you around.
missing you badly.
loving you deeply.
my every smile... is for you. =)
loving you always and always,
- your angel, your princess, truly.
Charmaine Lim Shi Wei
ling -
yes. its been hard for me. yes. for the tiny bit of love, i cried. for the one who loves me, i will survive and take good care of myself. my soul was dead and im awaiting for the light to shine on me.. guide me to the path of seeking my soul. Learning to be strong is not just by saying. I have to depend on myself to stay strong. i wll make it, i believe.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:10 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Its been hard for u. I heard ur voices crying out for a tiny bit of love! Struggling through the reason, ensuring the mask was perfect.. deep down, the struggle was useless, the mask was broken.. The pain was revealed!
Sometimes you wondered, have fate ended just like that.. U can't believe what u've received.. All u need was the Truth.. The assurance that u've been seeking for..
Cruelty.. Going through the agony.. Back and forth repeatedly.. When will it ever stop. The reason of death was so obvious.. But u learn that it is precious and not to let those who loves you down.. Again, struggling in the midst... U simply have no idea who are u living for.. No longer for urself, probably to those who loves you.. Ur soul was dead the moment parted came into the life. Seeking for ur soul to take fresh again..
Will the soul come back? It is in ur hand my darling. hang on and the light will show to guide u to the path of seeking ur soul..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:26 PM
babyAngel delication to her forever babyDevil.
女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现
男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会
狠心对谁
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生
女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现
男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
合:我却还是学不会
狠心对谁
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
合:不会再让我(你)心疼
一等再等
你就是我等的那个人
男:男人男人
女:女人女人
合:多么希望你是对的人
if it's really meant to be, the hurt will cure.
if it's really meant to be, they would not be stubborn and silly anymore.
if it's really meant to be, their love will remain forever.
if it's really meant to be, they will alway be the right one for each other.
if it's really meant to be, grab it and cherish it once again.
if it's really meant to be, love her with your entire love.
if it's really meant to be, dont hurt each other anymore.
if it's really meant to be, heavenlove stays.
if it's really meant to be, no matter how far they part, they will still be back together.
i pledged myself to hold on my promise.
my promise to be there forever.
my promise to be your angel forever.
my promise to be your baby forever.
my promise to our heavenlove.
i'll hold on and never break it.
=)
夜亦如此的颓废
思念不放手让我睡
你最喜欢听的爵士音乐
幽暗的忧伤的残念
而我站在照片的左边
快乐离我越来越远
每年这个季节特别有感觉
我好想你想再见你一面
让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
而我站在照片的左边
快乐离我越来越远
每年这个季节特别有感觉
我好想你想再见你一面
让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
就像在歌的转折
总有一些期待
真心才能诠释的爱
我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
using every means.. for your happiness and smile.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:26 AM
i blog whatever i felt at the very right point of time.
i seriously hate myself to bitch and cry when i saw you blogging 'dear'.
as said... the 'dear' you call.. no longer is me.
just imagine im calling someone else 'baby' and the person i call.. is not you.
but this will never happen.
again.
im back to normal.
facing you as per normal. talk to you as per normal. but without my sa jiaoing. i seek myself to understand. i tried and learn hard to understand. you wished that i understand you.. so.. i really do.
the mask we are wearing.. not just we ourselves know. everyone can see. everyone knows we love each other so much still. everyone knows we are stubborn. everyone knows the love that we insist it to be kept.
i continue to wear the mask. moving on like you always want me to.
you continue to wear the mask. try hard to prove you are xingfu.
if that's the way you want things to be.. and remain like tat forever..
for you being happy now... i'll stay happy too.
turn back. angel is still at the same spot.
wishing, praying for her devil to be in happiness forever.
` silly mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:20 AM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
choosing to bear the pain silently.
i walked away.
the 'dear' you mentioned, no longer the angel.
the one you 'miss' is your 'dear'?
the one you 'love' is your 'dear'?
HAHA.
laughed.
bitch abt me den. i felt myself being a bitch. i hate hate hate myself! i hate myself for giving in. i hate myself for choosing to believe. i hate myself for not treating you as a jerk. i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate myself for loving you so much.
i wana ensure myself for being right to think the way my heart and your heart think.. why aint you showing a single bit to assure?
i hate hate hate hate hate CHARMAINE LIM SHI WEI!!!
HATE!!!
i dun deny the fact.. you know i wun treat you as jerk so dun ever reply me.. things like... 'den treat me as a jerk ba', 'im not worth'.. bla bla... expected whatever you can reply.. how nasty and how harsh it can be le.
enough... im going bonker...
stop being a fucking bitch CHARMAINE LIM!!
fcuk! i hate my name! sux sux sux!
to ling: dun scold me. just let me bitch for awhile. im just too... stress le. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:59 PM
When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:07 AM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
maine not crying. cannot cry anymore.
it needs courage to believe. it needs determination not be affected by everyone saying and just believe in you. i did it.. but you choose to believe in others say.
=(
emo-ing. unhappy. sad. my dictionary appearing all these words when im feeling not trusted.
i am still who i am. TRUST is still what I want.. even though den.
=)
happy. content. smile. my dictionary appearing all these words when i know you are living well. and when i know you're happy.
changes lead us to these stage.. cannot grumble anymore. even though LOVE is so strong, but it's meant for only the devil and angel to know.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:07 PM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
hmm...i think reli alot of things had change le ba.. im still the one or not .. i guess not impt anymore le ba..i dun wish to explain or say anything anymore.. cos things had changed every day..
i jus hoping everyone here.. my dearest friends.. everyone can get their happiness and all the best in anything u guys are doing , no doubt in r/s or health... career.. family.. and lastly, we muz keep in touch!! i cherish u guys..love u all...
kriz
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:23 AM
yes. i had my down point and i know i have to get over it. it's true. i dun wan to be a loser, bitching, crying and complaining nonstop too. nothing to feel not worth about coz i once truly love the person and i believe the person once truly love me. maybe the love still remain, but it just can't continue. testing my patience and determination... maybe ba. it's the stage of growing up and i know what will benefit us most. holding on will only tie myself up and shut up myself into my own world. there's too many down point to reflect on and it's really.... my determination to stay strong. the only person to help me.. is just myself. learning to let go.. is also learning to grow up and become stronger. =)
everything could be the same. im still who i am but maybe a slight change in me. you could not see it.. coz you refused to see it. i'll move on and find my happiness. you too ya. life without me gonna be much relieve right? maybe im the one giving you too much stress. If it's meant to be, nothing will break them up. maybe really just the matter of time. the love remain and the feel remain. this i assure, no change. im still the baby you love and the princess you adore. when you're tired, look back and i'll be around.
learning to move on.. is to become a better person. moving on doesnt mean i gave up my heaven. heavenlove still remain.. but the devil asked me to keep it deep down in my heart.
i love my baby still.. and
i want my devil forever.
but.. i'll leave for the sake of devil's happiness.
her angel aint the best gal for her. =)
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:35 AM
Monday, March 31, 2008
Finally, I'm here to blog! Sorry been really busy to updates and speak to u lately. Yes indeed, alot of things happened and I felt the change in all of us. Maybe it is the growing up process or maybe it is just indivdual us chasing after diff lifestyles..
Life will never be smooth and struggles are always part of our lives. Yes we always say, WE need to be STRONGER.. But how strong is stronger? I understand your down point.. Really understand the fact that losing the person you cherished and it will be gone maybe forever, but look at the brighter side, maybe this is just a test for you... Test for your patience? Test for your determination? U need to stand up and walk it through.. After that you might found a BRAND new life belonging to yourself.
To maine: Maybe to you, I'm always strong or perhaps stronger den you but deep down I wasn't I chose my life that way I want to and Just show it to the person how good life can be.. I dun wan to be a loser, bitching, crying and complain nonstop.. That's me when I define loser in myself so that I'll not be sore about.. SHh ar! I know at times we really feel that not worth to be treated lydat but well count ourselves lucky becuz this isn't the worse.. The worse will come from ourselves if we still continue to hold it.. =)
I'm glad you have think it through and I'm looking forward to your new life.
Busy Kitty!! =P
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:15 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
had been years never log in to here le...
everything seem so different now??
i dunno... or is it still the same??
i cant say anything anymore...
up to u to decide wat to do...who to be with...
move on with ur life without me ba..
on the way, u'll find ur happiness...you'll be happier..
she's beta den me.. she can take care of u beta den i do ba..
im wishing u 2 all the best with my sincerity.
like i say be4, if those couple reli mean to be..
nothing can break them away...
is jus the matter of time..if we reli dun mean to be...
den onli can ren ming ba...
*you yuan wu fen*
take care always,
ur loving babylife is meaningless- HATE me pls .
8:17 PM
down point.
i wish im not affected.
i wish im not silly.
i wish im not stupid.
i wish im naive forever.
i have the NEED to recover. recover from the heartache and pain.
scar will leave with me forever. and it gonna be a huge deep scar.
'mainez-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:34 AM
Saturday, March 22, 2008
yeah. gonna re open this blog for the darling. =)
i'll start blogger coz of you k? mrs lim. AHEM.
yes. a lot to update... and we promised once.. this blog there will not be lies. and neither am i hiding anything from you. dun wish to find though... like wat we used to do in sec sch.
i decided to move on like wat she wan me to do.
it really hurt so much to hear your love one saying... 'i dun love you anymore.'
im really tat bad ba.. tat not worth for her to cherish.
if really gonna hide it.. den keep it deep inside ba. cant rely on her anymore. cant expect frm her anymore. cant...
move on and carry on le.
bleeding inside.. but.. i'll bear all the pain..
=)
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
4:24 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
she know im having my tp... she jus ask me if im pass or fail... i jus reply her...cos i jus treated her as friend now... i dun wish to explain myself anymore le... u wan to believe me or not... is up to u... i can say... me and her now... is totally nothing le!!
im tired of saying abt her le.. seriously...
pls...let me know ther's onli the 2 of us ya...
dun drag any1 in anymore...
i know u are jealous...
i'll jealous too...
but i choose to keep quiet...
cos i trust u...
trust u im the one u reli love...
the one u need...
the one u can rely on...
same to me... u're still the one....
breaking up is not i wan to see too...
not cos of any1...
is cos of us...
but after tat time...
i wont anymore...
trust me...
u're the one i truly wan to be with till the end of time....
i love you
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:56 AM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
yes... u still the one i love...
on wat i had done... i had explain...
i had say wat i wanna say...
if the final decision is tat we still together??
pls... dun be unhappy anymore...
cos... no matter wat...
im still here with u...
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:20 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
we are the pathetic souls.
and we alway left with no choice. i hate the world. i hate myself. i hate everything.
my eyes that swollen. i had lost count on the numbers of tears that had roll down.
im tired too. but i still hold on. holding on to something that have no future. but it's my love. and i really wish to hold on.
am i selfish?
am i not being understanding enough?
am i...?
i cant even confirm am i still the one you love.
i cant even confirm am i still the one you want.
i felt pathetic.
i felt foolish.
i felt like an idiot.
enlighten me pls den.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:15 AM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
I've locked my blog up already. I cannot take it anymore. I've no freedom to write anything. I've no where to vent my feelings at.. So I lock it up.. At least, I can write my thinking and feelings there, w/o anyone saying me. I'm tired of it.. So this is to inform u all that I've lock it up.
Every2 has their own problems, learn to take it easy. After u have vent ur anger or wadeva, juz rem to think back and reflect. Dun choose the wrong path and ruin ur own future. =)
Looking forward to this coming saturday.. Cheers~~!!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:46 PM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
